Tomorrow is Hugo’s birthday I know I haven’t really spoken out loud to anyone about his birthday and convey what I would like to do on his special day. It would be an emotional day for me and my family so I have decided to keep it a small and simple celebration this year as it has only been four months since Hugo left us. I hope to muster more strength to organise something for next year.
If you would like to do something for Hugo you can light a candle on his Forever Fund and write a lovely message there – My family and I would draw comfort from reading your well wishes and to know that you are helping us to continue Hugo’s good work and hopefully we can exceed his fundraising target! Thanks.
My letter to Hugo.
To my baby boy Hugo,
It is going to be your birthday this Sunday 10th August 2014. You would have been exactly two years old and I can imagine you running about and saying full sentences and learning to sing the birthday song at your own party if only you were still here……..I have tears of sadness of missing you so much but I can only imagine you at your party what you should be doing and enjoying the fun you deserve.
If only you were here, you would be celebrating with all your friends from nursery at your birthday party.
If only you were here, you would be chasing your party balloons and dancing and playing birthday party games.
If only you were here, and if you got hurt or fell over at your party, you would be running up to mummy for kisses and cuddles of comfort.
If only you were here, you would be bursting all the bubbles with Jasper and friends from the electric bubble machine and be laughing like crazy bears, if only you can be here.
If only you were here, Daddy would be snapping lots of photographs and videos of you so we can compare how much you have grown since your first birthday.
If only you were here, Jasper would be singing happy birthday to you and give you a warm brother kiss and hug – he misses you so much.
If only you were here, you would have blown out two candles on your birthday cake and everyone would have been clapping and cheering for you whilst you cut your birthday cake with mummy.
If only you were here, Daddy would be massaging your fat little feet when you are tired after your party and be reading you bedtime stories with Jasper.
If only you were here, mummy would have let you sleep in bed as a special birthday treat so you can snuggle up warm and close and wake up the next to mummy in the morning.
If only you were here, the next morning you would be opening all your birthday presents with Jasper ripping the wrapping paper and throwing it all about creating lovely fun mess for mummy to clear up.
If only you were here, you would be playing with all the toys you got from your friends and be sharing it with Jasper too.
If only! If only! If only! We wish this could come true one day when we can all be together.
Happy birthday to you my sweet baby Hugo. I love you always, mummy x